My Story
Have you ever felt like some of the things you were told growing up just didn’t fully add up? Something just seemed a little off, but you were taught to not stray and to believe in this very small bubble of information. That was me for a long time. My belief wasn’t really a belief at all. It was based the basis rules and to not question. Thank goodness the blinders came down early into my adulthood and I didn’t get stuck!
Anyways, let me back track and tell you how it started.
I was raised in a very closed and strict Christian religion. There was a huge emphasis on not asking questions that were outside of their teachings, and to believe in the bible (and their rules) how they interpreted it. To keep this going, we were not allowed to associate with anyone outside of that religion on a personal basis. that meant friends, outside of that religion, was absolutely off limits.
Anything that didn’t align was considered “bad” and would jeopardize your way to living in a heaven on earth after armageddon… But I had questions- tons of them. Things just didn’t make sense. Why is it that only a small number of people, people ONLY of this religion mind you, were entilited to this heavenly experience? What about the millions of other good people out there or kids or babies out there? Why wouldn’t they be allowed to have this experience just because they weren’t of that religion? It didn’t make sense. Any talks of spirits or someone getting visited by a passed loved one was automatically deemed a demon.
The fear they instilled in us was REAL.
Still… I had questions and this way of thinking just didn’t make alot of sense. But to be a good Christian, to attempt to live forever in a paradise and to hold on to the few “friends” I had, I needed to just go with the flow- give no push back.
I’ll spare you with the nitty gritty details, but thank goodness for my mom and her being so down to earth. Sure she was the one who raised me in that religion (for reasons I found out later was more so for survival and stability than anything else), but she was never intimidated by the elders of the chruch. She always let me ask whatever questions I wanted, even if it did end up ruffling some feathers within the church. Long story very short, I started my transition out when I was in high school and officially left, more or less, shortly after high school. As amazing as that might sound, it was pretty terrifying. I didn’t know what to believe except for what I grew up with. And the guilt… oh man, the guilt that was felt was unreal because unbeknownst to me, my religious foundation was built on fear and guilt. That guilt left a massive hole- a void deep within me because this was all I knew for my entire life, but I knew in my heart it wasn’t right. It wasn’t for me anymore, but I also didn’t know what was.
“When the entirety of who you are is defined solely on a religion…You can’t help but to be feel lost.”
Once I left, I started becoming a bit more open to other perspectives. What really changed things for me and took my blinders off, was a story told by a family member of a place called Coral Castle in Florida. Feel free to look it up, but it still boggles researchers today as to how it was built. Learning about that story, my mind was BLOWN. It just didn’t make sense to me because in the religion’s eyes, this would not exist. I started going down the rabbit hole more and learning about things like energy healing, Chi, astral projection, magik, life after death and so much more. The more I learned, the more betrayed I felt by my religious past and the people people part of that religion. But… on the other side of that betrayal was a feeling of liberation. Finally, something is starting to make sense! My mind was finally opening and that void I was feeling…it started to fill up. It was being filled by knowledge, by curiosity, by hope. I finally started to understand.
this feeling of being lost is really just the beginning of a new exploration.
So here we are.
Ghosts, the paranormal, psychics, mediums, energy healing, NDEs, life after death, crystals, tarot cards… What have I gotten myself into?! A whole new and beautiful world out there ready for me to dive deep into it.
I realize now that there is SO, so much I don’t know. Yes, it’s a whole new belief system, but this time, it’s mine. I can take what I want, and leave what I don’t. Do you know how beautiful that is? I can change my mind as many times as I want. I don’t have to fit into any one religious or spiritual box. I am always growing and always learning.
I can mold and shape my belief system in the way that is in alignment with ME!
Now that’s my story. That’s how I ended up here and with this podcast. I had so many questions for so many years. It was lonely, and depressing, but I am so happy that I’m understanding my journey a bit more now. I still have so many question, but now I’m much more open to finding answers to those questions. On this journey, this podcast will just be another catalyst in my evolution in this human experience. I hope that this podcast will be that for all of you too!